On 22 Nov, finally we stoped breast-feeding which we call 'graduation of breast feeding'
Now I'm happy about it and feel a sense of achievement.
I had been visiting a midwife periodically, who has special license to support breast-feeding in order to keep good condition since spring in 2011, partly because when Simon was 2-3 months old, we are not sure if the amount of breast milk was enough.
As some of you may know, mother can feel great happiness during breast-feeding, realizing 'bringing up baby' strongly and directly
On the other hand, when people said I might not producing milk enough for Simon, it turned out great sadness because I felt like a lemon.
And also I got back to work earlier and I felt sorry for Simon in a way, so I wanted to keep at least breast-feeding, even though I had to sacrifice some other things.
Also in Japan some peole are negative about keeping breast-feeding after one year old, which I can understand. Each doctor and midwive have different views and opinion on this.
Anyway, I could feel the time has come and Simon is ready for that.
Then we tried to stop it last month.
Bjørn and myself prepared a lot for that and it seemed it was ok with Simon during daytime.
However he vomitted out at night and got high fever around midnight.
So we had to postpone stopping breast-feeding since he only accepted breast milk when he got fever.
For 4 days, Simon had high fever around 39 degrees, and he got highest record in his life, which was 39.7 degrees.
After that, he sticked to breast stronger than before maybe because he got to know that he had to stop it.
At the same time it seemed he could understand the situation and he accepted it in a way.
This time, he cried sometimes at night but it didn't last many days.
It was funny that he searched for breast and put his hand in Bjørn's shirt when he was half asleep.When he found it was wrong side, he turned to me and started seaching again.
Only by touching, he can satisfy and sleep well.
Last night I found he was sleeping on me. It seems he want to nestle on me to feel safe.
I feel those compromise are cute.
Bjørn drew funny face on my breast.
Actually, it has to be smiling face but he didn't care the 'rule' and enjoyed drowing.
11月22日、ついに卒乳しました。
早く職場復帰したことなどもあり、多少の犠牲を払ってでも母乳育児を続けたいという強い想いで今までやってきたのですが、ついに卒業。
寂しい思いもあるものの、今はなんだか達成感の方が強く、自分に「お疲れ様」と言ってあげたい気分です。
今までおいしい母乳をあげつづけるためにということで、メンテナンスも兼ねて1～2ヶ月毎に桶谷式の母乳外来に通っていて、今回の卒乳もそちらでお世話になりました。
ちなみに、先月一度卒乳しようとしたのですが、なんと夜中に39度台の高熱が出て急遽中止。
おっぱいに描いた絵も慌てて消しました（笑）
同僚いわく、「子どもは意思の力で熱を出せる」とのこと（＾＾；）
その後も4日ほど高熱が続いたのですが、驚くほどおっぱいに執着し、寝ても覚めても離さない感じだったので、こっちもヘロヘロになりました。
そんなこんなで、仕切りなおした今回。
熱を出さないかはらはらしたのですが、前回のことがあって本人もそして私も心の準備ができたのか、思ったよりすんなり卒乳することができました★
初日の夜は、なぜか泣いた後はテンションが上がって、夜中の3時になってもはしゃいで寝なかったり、時々泣いたりはしたものの、徐々に夜泣きの回数も減ってきました。
夜中に、Tシャツの胸元から手を入れておっぱいを触ろうとしたものの、間違えてビョアンの胸を触り、無言で回転して私のほうに向きなおすといったこともあり、思わず笑ってしまうことばかりです。
ちょこっとおっぱいを触るだけで納得して寝たり、私のおなかの上に頭を乗せて寝てみたり、本人なりに妥協点を探しているようで、かわいいなぁと思っています（＾＾）
ちなみに、桶谷式では、おっぱいに絵を描くのですが、うちはビョァンが担当しました。
笑った顔でないといけないのに、怒っている顔もありますが・・・（笑）
